let it go let it go

i seriously need something to let go of this. this ridiculous relationship that going no where. its not that i dont love the guy anymore, its just im trying to be rational which i know that is something that hard to do.
i feel like im wasting my time. after all the effort, times, and feelings, still, its going no where. i think i should realize that i dont have to waste my time loving someone who doesn't love me, or try to be with someone who doesn't wanna be with me.
no matter what i'd do, i cant seem to change the way he feel about me. thats just that. what a woman can do to make a guy wants her? care for him? loving him with all the love we have inside? support him? being a very loyal partner? i've done that.
still, nothing's change.
i think im just making it even hard by trying too hard and staying here. i should just stop.
im afraid of myself. im afraid im getting cold and the feelings just fade away. tell me, how can you love someone if he doesn't love you? can you do that? can you hanging on onto something that doesn't catch you when you fall?

this is just ridiculous. and i should just let him go. and give myself to someone who deserve me.